but really i'm never alone even in my deepest room there's a presence I cannot deny here within cerebral tombs why all the suffering why the pretense why the lapse in my defense the faithful are falling in pain I resign to a cathartic pause from life if I awake will you be here deep down I know you always are my tears can't wash away my pain but maybe they'll melt through the charade to reveal the man I am I guess they were there all along the elusive golden rings but we spend so much time thinking deeply on shallow things what really matters what matters most as a guest I ask the host meaning to it all meaning is there none or is it just thy will be done